Blade Maidens: Strays – 24
I’m sorry, baby.
I’m so sorry.
I know you don’t want to hear from me. I get it. It took me a while to find you, where you left to after the fight. I’m hoping it’s been long enough that you won’t just rip this letter up without reading it.
I’m sorry. I can’t think of anything else. I fucked up. I was drunk, but I know that’s no excuse. She just…I don’t know if I can explain it. She was a singer. I thought every one of her songs were meant for me and me alone. Pretty sure everyone else in the bar thought it too. I was stupid and thought she was special. She could see what was going on in my heart. I should’ve been thinking of you and the kids. I know it. It’s all I CAN think of now. But I didn’t. And I’m sorry.
If it helps at all, she left. I didn’t even get her name. Woke up to her gone with my coinpurse and my shoes. I know I should have told you then, just been honest. I just…I knew it would hurt you and hurt the kids. Thought I could find a way to make it hurt less, but I guess I should’ve known your brother was working that night. He did the right thing, telling you. I would’ve pushed it off, just kept being a coward.
I miss you. I miss your laugh. I miss our boys. I just.
I’m sorry. I want to try again. I’m still at home.
Please come back.
I love you.
– A torn letter, found in a pile of refuse in Freehold